Kinzaya: End of Hiatus (Wicky)

[seraki]

"How about this? If you love me, let me go. This is really awkward."

Izaya let his arms go and whatever warmth that went with the hug go as well. He watched her as she walked back away from him. Whipping his tears from his face, Izaya stood up to face her. She held him in her hands and he knew it. He wasn't denying his role in any of this. He had fessed up to not being in control of this relationship and he ceded it all to his counterpart. He was willing to give her that if she would take what else went with it.

"You can't just show me anything. For all I know, you've never stopped playing chess, and all I am to you is, what, a queen? People sacrifice those too. If you want to show me you care, you'd better figure it out on your own."

Izaya stood there, dumbstruck, if only for a moment. He then shook his head and thought about what he could do to express his emotions. "I see," he stated as he walked past her. He went all the way to were his nodachi laid on the ground before stooping down to pick it up. He then used two small bursts of Shunpo to collect his jacket and place himself in front of Kin.

He motioned to hand her his zanpakuto with a weak smile on his face. "To prove that this isn't chess, I'm doing something illegal in chess. I'm demoting myself. Without this I'm half my value right? At that lowly value, I'm not in the position to do much sacrificing, right?" And then he motioned to hand her his jacket as well. "And with this I give you the control over part of me. Without this, I'm colder than usual and I'm miserable. I give you the control over my misery. With that, I yield my ability to mess anything up in this relationship. With these two things, I want to show you that I'm not playing games with you."

"Love isn't something you can use a cheat sheet on."

"So, are you saying that love is there?" With that implication, he smiled slightly to himself. He wanted to get something out of her that was definitive and he wasn't going to leave until he got it. That was what he wanted from all of this after all.

[Wicked]

"You can't give me your zanpakuto," she said quickly, astonished. He was kidding. Lying. He had to be. No shinigami would ever hand their zanpakuto over to someone else. "It's not a tool, you can't just give it away."

She held it, but only so that it wouldn't clatter on the floor. Or at least, that's what she told herself. Then, he handed her his jacket. She stared at it. That seemed more reasonable.

"You're..." she couldn't call him a liar. He wasn't lying - not this time. So instead, she finished, "You're an idiot."

She said it, much to her own chargrin, with affection. She hadn't meant to, but she couldn't spit the words the way she wanted to. Couldn't even say them matter-of-factly. She said it smoothly, and softly, and her voice cracked.

Damn it.

She moved to hand them both back. Her tanto pressed against his nodachi, and she had a feeling they were communicating. That, she assumed, was how she could tell he was being honest.

People lied. Their swords didn't. (Though, their swords did sometimes cut people in half. But that's beside the point.)

[seraki]

"You can't give me your zanpakuto. It's not a tool, you can't just give it away."

Izaya chuckled at this a bit. She didn't want him to give it to her because of the implications of that action. His zanpakuto was a piece of his soul and it reflected a lot about him. It meant that he was literally giving her a piece of him. Kin didn't like that kind of bond with someone it would seem. She didn't like it because it meant that Izaya was actually gaining ground on this. That was reward on its own.

"I won't be fighting any time soon Kin-chan. So, why not? I mean, I've been working hard enough on my swordsmanship. I can take a break. Besides, maybe you'll learn a thing or two from it. I daresay she knows quite a bit about you already."

"You're...You're an idiot."

Smiling even more at this comment, Izaya knew that she couldn't call him a liar or a jerk. He had won that little encounter because he wasn't being anything that she could call him on. She couldn't be mad at him if he wasn't doing anything stupid. Kin wasn't that hard to figure out. Thinking he had cracked the code, Izaya felt pretty good about himself.

"My intelligence is only hindered around you Kin-chan. For reasons, well for reasons that are already kind of obvious." Kin had then tried to hand back his zanpakuto and jacket. He put his hands up and shook his head. He wasn't going to take those items back. "No no. I told you to keep them. When you're ready to believe me and level with me, you can give them back."

[Wicked]

"Fine," she consented. He looked too damn smug. She would have to fix that later. But for now, she had lost. There was nothing left to do but accept defeat. And snark. There would be plenty of snarking.

"Just don't blame me when your captain finds out you gave your zanpakuto to some girl," she admonished bitterly - well, as bitterly as she could sound. Somewhere, in a dark, dank corner of her mind, a girlish voice giggled about how sweet the gesture was.

Out in the real world, Kin looked skeptical at best.

Then, at last, she began to walk back towards her quarters. She tucked Shugaka back in his sheath, and carried Izaya's sword partially over her shoulder. She was careful with it.

The jacket she kept loosely under her arm.

"Men," she groaned distastefully, as she walked away.

[seraki]

"Fine."

Izaya simply smiled at this himself. He had won this himself and for that he was proud. Kin was usually the one who beat up on him emotionally and got the last "punch" in on the conversation. This time, he had done it and it was a great feeling. If he was just honest about his feelings and clever about how he presented them, he could get through to Kin. It might take a little time, but he'd get there.

"Just don't blame me when your captain finds out you gave your zanpakuto to some girl."

Izaya laughed. The notion that Abarai-taichou would care about where his zanpakuto was...well, that was laughable. It was really quite comical. "If you think my captain gives a shit, you obviously don't know a thing about my division. I'm quite convinced he doesn't even know my name."

After that, Kin had began to walk away from him with his objects that he had given her. Good, she wouldn't fight this any more. As she walked away, he smiled to himself at how nice she looked. He was glad that he could actually get through to her.

"I love you, Kin-chan," he whispered to himself.

-Fin-