Post by Seimenk on Aug 22, 2009 21:21:16 GMT -5
Seimenk lay alone, stretched out on the side of a dune in the desert of eternal night. The ever crescent moon that hung in the starless void, his only companion. A cold wind blew from some distant place, shaping the empty expanse, and rattling the brittle trees. Unable to sit pensively, he began to think aloud.
"The Shinigami say this universe was created by the Light. If that's to be believed, what was it then, that caused the Dark to be created? Neither side will approve of the others existence, both are determined to fight, until Final Death.
There's nothing wrong with fighting for ones own survival. But even a fight in defense easily becomes awash in the scent of death. When blood finds new freedom in its release, no one comes away without smelling. For many, it is an intoxicating fragrance that like no other stirs the spirit. For some, it is a abhorent. The latter are exceptions, not the rule in a world which to me, seems drunk on the elixr of madness. They follow the path of least bloodshed, doing only what they have to do, as repellent as it may be.
I am one of the exceptions.
For the longest time now, the pawns of war have scurried to meet their generals, the Espada. I do not know what their plans are, only that their campaign has always been against the Soul Society. Recent rumor tells of a major offensive somewhere, thats all. Where else could it be, but the Soul Society? If the walls of the Sereitei had been breached, we would know about it. The Soul Society would be finished. So the attack must have failed. But it could not have been without collateral damage. That's an inevitable fact of warfare, certainly with Arrancar's vast and deadly powers. In their attack...how many non-combatants perished? I can accept protecting Hueco Mundo, but I cannot imagine laying siege to our enemies Capital. Too many people would get in the way. Too many that weren't soldiers, that weren't willing to pick up a sword and lay their lives on the line.
Must I breathe deep the incense of their labors? The rich scent of their machinations? If I dont, does that make me a traitor to my brothers?"
Its funny how easy it is to change a statement into a question.
"Am I one of the exceptions?
Did I not say that it was our Destiny, to swallow all the light? For the Dark to conquer all, take all into its black embrace? For all souls trapped in that pointless, vicious, endless cycle of death and rebirth to find freedom through our stomachs? Did I not command a human, Joe, to accept what I said was mankinds Final Destiny? Did that Shinigami, Kouseki actually prove me wrong that day, when she argued against everthing I believed in? If I change my mind, does that make me a traitor to my own creed? To what for so long I accepted as truth? To what still seems to be truth. If I still believe in it, just why the hell am I questioning it? Is it because to accept that as truth, I must also accept the Espada's actions as necesessary?
I thought I was one of the exceptions.
That Shinigami at the construction site? Did I not impale her on a pike and throw her in a deep grave? Did I not enjoy that woman, how she reminded me I could feel pain, even if I felt but one kiss of her bankai and not another stroke? Did I not take a trophy?!", he cried, removing her hair ornament from the pocket of his cassock. He dangled it from his fingers, the red beads clattering in the wind. "Did I lie to Nekoruru, when I told her I didn't hurt anyone that didn't deserve it? I could have run away from that fight, I was never in any grave danger...."
Then again, I didn't see her die and I was kind enough to pull her out of that hole. Raise her up, and leave her on a pedestal with carved flowers, like her little hair ornament.
"What did they used to say of the Vasto Lorde? That they were ancient and their sorrow was great. They said the cold wind of the stars was the breath they drew, that their veins were as ice. That their fury would find release on the cold plains and burning sands alike and again their voice be heard among the stars and the spaces between them. Where are they? Are they dead, content to keep to their forgotten crypts and vaults? No. That is not dead which can forever lie. Are they sleeping then? Or are they locked away in some lost universe, serving some life sentence? Dimensional doors barred with deadbolts that require the keys of old? At the thought of such things, am I humbled, am I reduced.
Now are we all humbled, all reduced. What are we now?
A mass without roots.
Billions of souls with holes to fill.
Lead by a Lord that offers the right to obey, and the right to kill."
Must they deify you, Aizen?
"Is that all we will be allowed in this domain? I cannot sit idly by, watching everthing happen. And I cannot feel my thus far disorganized action, efficent -doing little 'jobs' here and there where I believe I can help Hueco Mundo. I cannot stand alone and accomplish anything. If that is all we will be allowed, I cannot stand amongst the Espada, I cannot look on their works! I could not bear to have others look upon...me. If I am to...", he paused, avoiding the word 'be', as it implied he was trying to become something he was not. "If I am to, remain an exception and play apart in Hollowkind's destiny, I can be only, an Exequias. I cannot carry the sword that promises us victory into the Soul Society, but I can carry it closer to home and still live with myself.", he said standing up now.
"I have an innate aspect of death in me, my aspect is Burial. I can show no mercy to those who willfully trample our motherland or directly interfere with our destiny. If they do not flee, I wont kill them. I'll bury them alive."
Comming out of his deep introspection, Seimenk found himself in the middle of a small sandstorm. It confused him at first, as he could no longer feel the breeze. Suddenly, he became aware of his own Earth tuned reatsu and the shimmering orange aura that enveloped his body. Calming himself, he sat down, running a hand through his hair.
"The Shinigami say this universe was created by the Light. If that's to be believed, what was it then, that caused the Dark to be created? Neither side will approve of the others existence, both are determined to fight, until Final Death.
There's nothing wrong with fighting for ones own survival. But even a fight in defense easily becomes awash in the scent of death. When blood finds new freedom in its release, no one comes away without smelling. For many, it is an intoxicating fragrance that like no other stirs the spirit. For some, it is a abhorent. The latter are exceptions, not the rule in a world which to me, seems drunk on the elixr of madness. They follow the path of least bloodshed, doing only what they have to do, as repellent as it may be.
I am one of the exceptions.
For the longest time now, the pawns of war have scurried to meet their generals, the Espada. I do not know what their plans are, only that their campaign has always been against the Soul Society. Recent rumor tells of a major offensive somewhere, thats all. Where else could it be, but the Soul Society? If the walls of the Sereitei had been breached, we would know about it. The Soul Society would be finished. So the attack must have failed. But it could not have been without collateral damage. That's an inevitable fact of warfare, certainly with Arrancar's vast and deadly powers. In their attack...how many non-combatants perished? I can accept protecting Hueco Mundo, but I cannot imagine laying siege to our enemies Capital. Too many people would get in the way. Too many that weren't soldiers, that weren't willing to pick up a sword and lay their lives on the line.
Must I breathe deep the incense of their labors? The rich scent of their machinations? If I dont, does that make me a traitor to my brothers?"
Its funny how easy it is to change a statement into a question.
"Am I one of the exceptions?
Did I not say that it was our Destiny, to swallow all the light? For the Dark to conquer all, take all into its black embrace? For all souls trapped in that pointless, vicious, endless cycle of death and rebirth to find freedom through our stomachs? Did I not command a human, Joe, to accept what I said was mankinds Final Destiny? Did that Shinigami, Kouseki actually prove me wrong that day, when she argued against everthing I believed in? If I change my mind, does that make me a traitor to my own creed? To what for so long I accepted as truth? To what still seems to be truth. If I still believe in it, just why the hell am I questioning it? Is it because to accept that as truth, I must also accept the Espada's actions as necesessary?
I thought I was one of the exceptions.
That Shinigami at the construction site? Did I not impale her on a pike and throw her in a deep grave? Did I not enjoy that woman, how she reminded me I could feel pain, even if I felt but one kiss of her bankai and not another stroke? Did I not take a trophy?!", he cried, removing her hair ornament from the pocket of his cassock. He dangled it from his fingers, the red beads clattering in the wind. "Did I lie to Nekoruru, when I told her I didn't hurt anyone that didn't deserve it? I could have run away from that fight, I was never in any grave danger...."
Then again, I didn't see her die and I was kind enough to pull her out of that hole. Raise her up, and leave her on a pedestal with carved flowers, like her little hair ornament.
"What did they used to say of the Vasto Lorde? That they were ancient and their sorrow was great. They said the cold wind of the stars was the breath they drew, that their veins were as ice. That their fury would find release on the cold plains and burning sands alike and again their voice be heard among the stars and the spaces between them. Where are they? Are they dead, content to keep to their forgotten crypts and vaults? No. That is not dead which can forever lie. Are they sleeping then? Or are they locked away in some lost universe, serving some life sentence? Dimensional doors barred with deadbolts that require the keys of old? At the thought of such things, am I humbled, am I reduced.
Now are we all humbled, all reduced. What are we now?
A mass without roots.
Billions of souls with holes to fill.
Lead by a Lord that offers the right to obey, and the right to kill."
Must they deify you, Aizen?
"Is that all we will be allowed in this domain? I cannot sit idly by, watching everthing happen. And I cannot feel my thus far disorganized action, efficent -doing little 'jobs' here and there where I believe I can help Hueco Mundo. I cannot stand alone and accomplish anything. If that is all we will be allowed, I cannot stand amongst the Espada, I cannot look on their works! I could not bear to have others look upon...me. If I am to...", he paused, avoiding the word 'be', as it implied he was trying to become something he was not. "If I am to, remain an exception and play apart in Hollowkind's destiny, I can be only, an Exequias. I cannot carry the sword that promises us victory into the Soul Society, but I can carry it closer to home and still live with myself.", he said standing up now.
"I have an innate aspect of death in me, my aspect is Burial. I can show no mercy to those who willfully trample our motherland or directly interfere with our destiny. If they do not flee, I wont kill them. I'll bury them alive."
Comming out of his deep introspection, Seimenk found himself in the middle of a small sandstorm. It confused him at first, as he could no longer feel the breeze. Suddenly, he became aware of his own Earth tuned reatsu and the shimmering orange aura that enveloped his body. Calming himself, he sat down, running a hand through his hair.